Today is the last day of summer. Tomorrow I'll start my senior year in PSHS with my class, IV-Charm. :D

This summer has been great, to say the least. I was able to prepare for college life through review classes, and I was able to tap into my talents through dance classes.

Fun as summer is, I can't wait to get back to school. It's another year of learning, of friendship, of chances and hope and making things right.

So long, summer. Wilkommen, PSHS senior year!


[Shameless plug: Wish me luck on my SATs (June 7) and my dance recital (June 8). Thanks to everyone who have supported me! Love you all!]

current mood: excited

[ Warning:  A very ANGRY post. You'll know if this is directed at you or not.]

My cup of endurance has, at long last, run over.

It doesn't matter how much I "double the dose" and strive to keep going. Because you will always keep on trying to see just how much more you can push so you can get me closer to that edge of the cliff.

I can take all that pushing, but when you pulled in those who have no business in it, and were much better off before you started on them, that was it for me.

If you're going to attack, at least do it right. At least attack with a little bit of honor. Because there is absolutely no honor in attacking someone who's been bound and trussed and staring at you in the eye and believing that you won't take out that gun and just put one between that person's eyes.

Even after you already have.

current mood: angry

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!

current mood: loved

I meant to make a proper end-of-the-year post for my beloved third year class, but I never really got around to it. So I just decided to use the format that most of my classmates have been using for their posts :D

Beryllium 09, thank you for a wonderful year. You were all amazing, and I feel so lucky to be part of the class. Thanks for all the memories and the friendships. We made it! No matter what anyone else says, we ARE the best class. :D And if people ask why, that just means they can't get it like we can ^^

And now, on to the post proper. :D

I LOVE YOU ALL, BERYLLIUM 09!

current mood: happy

It's almost the end of the year. I'll put a better post soon, but for now, as perio is calling and I must be quick...

Thank you for everything, Beryllium 09. I had the most fun this third year of Pisay because of you. I wouldn't have it any other way. I love you all!

current mood: happy

I was cleaning out my other email address' inbox, when I came across some old blog entry comments, by friends - at least, I still consider them as my friends.

Has it really been so long ago when I received this from him and her? Would he still be willing to keep those promises he scripted before? Does she still consider me as a friend?

And yet now, our friendship is all but dust and ashes. I wonder if they know how much I want to make things right. But conscience and heart tell me that I have to wait. Still, I can't help but ask... Is there any way to make it whole again?

"In the awful quarrel
we had, my tempur burnt
our friendship to cinders.
How can I make it whole again?

This way, that way
that time, this time,
I pick up the burnt bits,
trying to change them back."
- James Berry, My Hard Repair Job

current mood: lonely

Y'know, Valentine's Day isn't just commercialist crap. It's also a day for family, classmates, friends, and loved ones. As long as you make it that way. Otherwise, it's just commercialist crap. :D

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Heaven exists on earth. 'Nuff said.

current mood: ecstatic

[a type-as-it-comes post. no edits. so don't expect anything worth reading, really. oh, and prissy's watching as i type. so naiinfluence rin. hahaha.]

Gwaaaah. Schoolwork is killing me.

Bio video, Chem YMSAT project, Physics Olympics project, Math review, STR project, English readings, Filipino scripts, SocSci reflection paper, PEH skill test, and CreW Dalumat stuff. All due this week.

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I pulled another all-nighter, and most likely I'm going to pull one more before this week is over. Only consolation is that Prissy might stay over. So maybe someone will all-nighter with me, yay.

Oh, wait. I forgot. Prissy doesn't pull all-nighters. Lol. Whatever.

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Runer didn't join us sa Physics Olympics project. All because of a stupid coin flip. I now hate that coin. *sob*

Oh, and he got his thumb cut open before Chem today. I have no idea how or why. And yet he insists on playing with rusty nails. X_X I honestly don't know how I'm going to take care of this guy. Oh well. I like taking care of Runer anyway. Yay. 

Parang kapatid ko na nga siya e. A sarcastic, "contraputal" (but we all know he's not!), smart-in-math-and-physics-and-comsci-and-other-techy stuff, quiet, rather blunt, and incredibly caring and awesome kapatid. :D

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Wow. I now have THREE layout artists for the Dalumat. Awesome. Nakakahiya though, I'm not even paying them or anything, we're not from the same SCHOOL, and yet they're willing to do this for me. And hey, their work is INCREDIBLE.

Now if only I could have the specifications and the go-signal to continue layouting. But nooooo.

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Work overload. Aack.

And it isn't even Hell Week yet.

current mood: tired

I know I said I wouldn't write something like this, because it would seem like a farewell of sorts, and that would go against your definition of family. But I don't know if I'll ever be able to talk to you properly again, so forgive these awkward words.

I know that you'll do well, wherever you're going and whatever you do. It's always been that way with you. I hope that people there would realize how lucky they are to get someone as smart, as special, and as great a friend as you are.

I know that things weren't always the best between us, so I apologize for all the hurt and frustration I have caused you. I want to take this chance now to give you a little gift the day before you leave the soil we both stood on together, and move on to greener pastures:

I give you whatever wings I have, so you may use them to be able to fly and fulfill your dreams. I give them to you enriched with all my love, hopes, dreams, and moonlit nights. I pray that they will serve you well. On moonlit nights like those we spent before in Pisay, I hope to look up to the sky, and know that I will find you flying up there, seeking curiously amongst the stars. Flying up in the sky watching over me - over US - as you always did.

To my dearest RC... You were a sister to me, and you always will be. I keep this love and friendship with you that neither time nor distance will change. I love you, onee-san. Best wishes to you, and God bless, always. God loves you, and so do I.

If you need something to remember me by - if you ever want to - you can find it in the Sam McBratney's children's book Guess How Much I Love You: 
"I love you all the way to the moon... and back."